I am at this very second just about as frustrated as I have ever been. Allow me to explain..
I went out tonight and bought me some pop. Pop and chocolate bars. As I was paying for them I saw some lottery tickets so I bought one on a whim. I basically never buy lottery tickets but I figured I might as well. It's actually partly because I was on the subway early tonight and I saw some sign for the lottery and I thought "hey, good things always happen to bad people.. I'm bad, I should buy a lottery ticket!". I am not even making that up, I really thought it. Sad eh? Anyway..
So yeah, I get this card home and it's a scratch ticket thing and the theme is cribbage. Basically there are 18 little squares you scratch off one by one, and each one has a number underneath it. After each square you move down this little road thing on the other side of the card, and if you land on a prize amount, you win. Kind of a crappy explanation, but I'm sure you get the point.
So yeah, I'm going through it and it takes me about a minute or two to play it, and I'm thinking "Oh man, they should not be allowed to sell lottery games that last longer than like 5 seconds because this just makes you think way too long about how great it'd be to win and it is really addicting". So I get to my very last move and I still haven't won, and I scratch a 4, so I move 4 spots and boom, I have won five hundred dollars! I am gleeful. I am happier than I have been in so long, because I won 500 easy stinking dollars. So about 2 minutes later (it took me 2 minutes to decide who I would phone first tomorrow morning and brag to and what I'd do with the cash hahaha) I think I should double-check the card, even though I have no doubt whatsoever I counted correctly.
Well you can guess the rest, I didn't win $500. What happened was that on the second last move I got a 7, so I moved my pointer thing up 7 spaces. When I got a 4 on the next move I forgot about those 7 though, and moved 4 spots from the spot from a move ago. Again I know how confusing this sounds, I basically write it just because it was a more sneaky error than if I had just miscounted somewhere. I ended up winning the amount that the ticket cost me, which is a big slap in the face if you ask me. I mean why bother have a "prize" that is the same amount you paid for the stupid ticket? I guss it's better than nothing, but I'm pretty irrational and annoyed right now.
So anyway, I would just like to state for the record that winning a lot of money makes you feel pretty good, but realizing you didn't really win makes you feel really bad. Losing also makes you think things like "I should just go show up and try to cash in the ticket even though they'll tell me it's not a winner". I swear that thought occurred to me for a split second and I have no clue whatsoever why.
So yeah, once again that filthy little bitch capitalism has slapped me in the face and reminded me of how dirty it is. That is all.
Also someone please send me $500 so I can feel happiness again.
03:40:57 - 1999-10-29